The end of the year is coming up, and that means it's almost time for the annual New Year's Resolutions to be formed.  I keep saying that I'm not a resolution person, yet every year I'm on one of my blog's talking about what I want to change in my life.  Every year it sounds the same...

This year I moved yet again.  This time I left Portland, OR for my home state of Texas, and even though I was heading home I knew that I wanted something new, so I set my sites on Austin.  I haven't made it to ATX yet, but I landed in San Marcos which is close enough for now.

The reason where I'm living now is important is because I once again vowed to change my life, and I was convinced that a new locale would be the first step towards that change.  Yet here I am living the same life I was up in Oregon.  Hell, the rain even followed me down here.  The words, "the more things change, the more they stay the same", are true.  It's a cliche for a reason.

Life here in San Marcos is pretty much in the same rut that it was in up in Portland.  I'm still single, I'm still alone, I'm still somewhat unhappy, and I'm still trying to convince myself that I'm OK with all of it.  I keep telling myself that it's only for now, and that things are going to change, and I continue to wait.  Just like I did in Oregon.

It just dawned on me that moving from place to place doesn't really change anything if you don't let it.  You're just going through the same existence, just in different surroundings.  So, I guess what I'm saying is that my new resolution is to create the change that I thought would accompany my relocation rather than just expecting it to happen.

But at least now I have Whataburger...

The other day, I received a phone call from someone close to me, and this person informed me that they had found the "one", and it sounds like wedding bells will be heard in the near future.

While I am genuinely happy for this person, I couldn't help but be stung by the news at the same time.  I always thought that I'd win the race to the alter.  I know that sounds silly and juvenile, but it also kept me sane.  This big news just reminded me how far away I am from getting married, and starting a family.

Of course I only have myself to blame for my current singleness because I haven't really taken any steps to find anyone special, and there are times when I think that it'll never happen, so why bother.  Then again, I'm a romantic at heart, so I also believe that I'm destined to meet someone great...it's the waiting that's getting to me.

I think I've found my dream girl via Twitter. She likes the same TV show as I do, she has a great sense of humor (based on what I can tell), and she's kinda cute.

Too bad she lives nowhere near me...